Simply Redeemed

As a mom, my greatest desire is that my children live a life according to God's will.  I want their relationship with Him to be steadfast and strong.  And I want them to be heaven-bound.  I want them to learn from their momma's many MANY mistakes and take the road less traveled rather than the road I detoured to, too many times to count.

"I am a Christian.  Do you know what that means?  It means I'm far from perfect, but simply redeemed!"  This is a line from a song by Heather Headley that I have to repeat to myself alot.  Why?  Because sometimes I feel so unworthy of God's love, God's forgiveness, and God's blessings.  But what is wonderful is that He is merciful... and boy, do I need some mercy.  I'm not going to list each of my sins for you because there is really no need, there are too many, and you can't save me!  Only Jesus can.... and has!  The thing is, is that I still have to reap what I've sown.... and by "reaping," I mean raise a teen daughter.  LOL  Ok, it's not so bad (at times) but the problem is I'm worried that the way I was, when she was growing up, is going to be more of an influence on her than the way I am now.  The road I went down was not narrow... but wide!  I didn't do drugs, smoke cigarettes, or drink alcohol.... I had babies.... without being married.  I know that, to the world, this is a regular occurrence and not frowned upon like it used to be.... but I don't want to be "worldly" and I don't want my children to be either.  I pray each day that God gives me the wisdom in raising up Godly children who are witnesses for His Kingdom by their words and most importantly by their actions.  

Jesus, guide my steps in parenting.  May the changes you have made in me be evident in my life, for all those who come in contact with me.... especially my children!  Amen...

-While I was yet in my transgressions, somebody paid the price for me.  I offered up my life to Him and now I say again... I am not perfect but simply redeemed.  -Heather Headley

Me as a baby, holding my baby

My baby, Kristian, (very near the age I was pictured above) holding her cousin