We Are Human

My devotion today brought up something from my past. I think sometimes we get so caught up in would haves, could haves and should haves. Its time to break lose of that mentality.

About a year ago I was hurt. I mean deeply hurt by someone that I trusted and when I say trusted, I mean seriously trusted with my life. But something happened and honestly to this day I have no idea what that something was that caused this person to just up and leave, pretty much without an ounce of an explanation.

It hurt bad. I was so angry and upset with this person that it caused me to become bitter. Its crazy when you are that close to someone and then they just up and leave, I actually felt like I went through  a grieving process. I was an emotional wreck for months. I was down and just out of it. I cried out to God, I was angry at Him for letting this happen. I was so upset and confused.

And you know what, He stood by me and let me throw my tantrum but guess what? He was right there when I was done acting like a child. He knew the reason this happened, He knew why He took that person out of my life. I remember standing in my bathroom one day and it hit me, as I fell to my knees and tears starting falling, I apologized and repented for the way I had acted. For blaming Him for all of it. For being angry at Him. For becoming bitter towards that person. I asked for forgiveness and like always He was there with arms open wide.

I just wanted to share that today because I honestly feel like someone that may read this needs to hear it. We are human, we get caught up in emotions and we can let them run us. But that doesn't mean we are forever ruined. We have a God that loves us and He knows us better than we know ourselves. Even if we do not speak it, He knows. I can honestly say from experience - SPEAK IT! When you speak it, it brings healing. It brings it to the surface and you can out loud repent for what you are feeling. God already knows but when we recognize it, that's when true healing comes.

We need Him loves. In every aspect of our lives, we need Him. If you are dealing with something that is causing anger, bitterness or hate - call out to Him. He is just waiting for you!

"Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge" (Ps. 62:8)