Have you ever had those moments in life where it was life changing? Well I am having one of those moments right now. Ok maybe my husband is actually having the procedure but I am freaking out just a bit.
As I am typing, my lovely groom is getting a vasectomy. That's right, I am getting all personal up in here! You heard me correctly; I said a vasectomy. I know I am not the one that is actually going through with it, but I feel like my heart is being ripped out.
I have so many questions! What if I am not done? What happens if in a year or so I want another precious gift from God? Yes, I know I have three precious gifts and I wouldn't trade them for anything, but it's a woman thing. There is something down in me that says I am not done with my journey of having babies, but my husband doesn't agree with me.
I totally get it. We have three wonderful, healthy babies...why worry about another one? Why put us in even more financial hardship than we are already in? Those questions don't even occur to me. I guess that's why I have my better half to bring them up.
As I am sitting here in the waiting room crying my eyes out and blogging at the same time, I know this is the right thing for us. I know that another baby just isn't in the cards for us. I know that I need to be happy with the family that God has given me. I know all these things and yet I am sobbing like a baby.
It will take some time for me to get used to the fact that I will never be pregnant again. Never have those swollen ankles. Never have those late night Taco Bell cravings and I will get over that. I just need to get home and hug my babies and thank God for everything He has blessed us with.
I am beyond thankful to have such a beautiful, healthy family and I couldn't be happier.
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