Do you ever have moments where you second guess decisions that you have made? I'm at the point right now. I look back on certain things that I walked away from and wonder if it was the best decision for myself and my family.
In my time with my Father this morning, I asked just that. Was what I did what he told me to do? Was it his voice and not mine? I moved because he told me that it was right move, the move that he wanted me to make. So why do I keep asking myself if it was right? I have been struggling with that for about a week. As I sat at my kitchen table this morning I just asked him for an answer. I was honest with him, I didn't hold anything back. I even asked him for forgiveness if it wasn't the move that was supposed to be made.
I could feel his arms wrap around me and tell me that everything was going to be ok. He told me that what I heard was correct, he wanted me to do what I did - it was time. But then why so much hardship, so much unknown about whats going to happen next?
One of my closet friends put it this way - if we were to know what was coming next all the time, then why would we need to rely on God? BAM! That's so true. He needs us to rely on him for our situations. He wants us to know that he has us, no matter what. He isn't going to let us completely drown, but he will ask us to step out of the boat.
I feel like the past few months I have been in the water barely keeping my head above it, gasping for air before I go back under. But you know what, I know that we will come out on the other end stronger, wiser, and giving all the glory to God! Because I can honestly say that the only way we will get out of this is Him.
So let me just encourage you today, He is there with you - during your storm, during your battle. Whatever you are facing, He is there walking beside you. Know that whatever mistakes you have made, He has already forgiven you. He loves us. He is not condemning us and if you are feeling that right now, that's the enemy. The enemy will do anything he can to make us second guess our decisions, to turn the wheel the other direction when we know which direction we are supposed to go.
Trust in him loves. Trust him with everything you have. My family is in a battle right now and we are growing stronger together in it and I can't wait to see us on the other side - its going to be a beautiful thing. So stay positive and make sure you are talking with your Father daily.
